كوسوفا لا تناديني!!

ترجمة إنجليزية
شارك:
كُوسُوفَا لَا تُنَادِينِي!!
أَنَا هُنَا مَشْلُولَةٌ إِرَادَتِي
مَغْلُولَةٌ قِيَادَتِي
كُوسُوفَا لَا تُنَاجِينِي!!
فَإِنَّنِي أَعِيشُ لَا سَمْعٌ لَدَيّْ، وَلَا فَمُ
أَعِيشُ لَا أَدْرِي مَتَى
سَيَأْمُرُ الْحَاكِمُ بِالْقَبْضِ عَلَيّْ، فَأُعْدَمُ
أَخَافُ إِنْ أَصَخْتُ سَمْعِي لَحْظَةً
مِنْ تُهْمَةِ الْإِرْهَابِ
وَبُنْدُقِيَّتِي كَمِدْفَعِ الْحُكَّامْ
لَكِنَّنِي أَدُسُّهَا تَحْتَ التُّرَابْ
أَخَافُ أَنْ يُشْتَمَّ مِنِّي أَنَّنِي
أُنَاصِرُ الْإِرْهَابْ
كُوسُوفَا.. إِنَّنِي أَفْدِيكِ!
لَكِنْ بِالْكَلَامْ
مُجَرَّدِ الْكَلَامْ!!
فَلَسْتُ أَمْلِكُ الزِّمَامْ
كَانَ أَبِي يَقُولُ لِي:
إِنَّ الْجِدَارَ -يَا بُنَيَّ- يَسْمَعُ الْكَلَامَ!
صَدَّقْتُهُ -بِالرَّغْمِ مِنِّي- ارْتَعَشَتْ
مَفَاصِلِي
وَاصْطَكَّتِ الْعِظَامْ
إِنِّي أَخَافُ دَائِمًا مِنْ لَعْنَةِ الْحُكَّامْ
كُوسُوفَا لَا تَلُومِينِي!
يَكْفِيكِ فِي هَذَا الْأَسَى «نَاتُو»
مَأْسَاتُنَا وَاحِدَةٌ
لِأَنَّ خَالِدًا وَجَعْفَرًا وَحَمْزَةً مَاتُوا..!!
كُوسُوفَا لَا تَلُومِينِي!!
فَإِنَّنِي مُخَدَّرٌ بِأُغْنِيَاتِ الْحُبِّ وَالْغَرَامْ
تِلْفَازُنَا يَعْرِضُهَا وَالنَّاسُ فِيهِمْ لِلْهَوَى هُيَامْ
تِلْفَازُنَا يَعْرِضُهَا.. مَنْ قَالَ إِنَّهَا حَرَامْ؟!
شَاهَدْتُ فِي تِلْفَازِنَا
أَطْفَالَ كُوسُوفَا الْيَتَامَى يُذْبَحُونْ
مِنْ قَبْلِ أَنْ يَسْتَكْمِلُوا الْفِطَامْ
نِسَاءُ كُوسُوفَا الثَّكَالَى
يُغْتَصَبْنَ.. يُنْتَهَكْنَ.. بِانْتِظَامْ
لَكِنَّنِي كَأَنَّنِي أُشَاهِدُ الْأَفْلَامْ
أَشْرَبُ مِنْ عَصَائِرِي
وَآكُلُ الطَّعَامْ
فَلَا يَغَصُّ الحَلْقُ مِنِّي لُقْمَةً
وَيَنْتَهِي الْكَلَامْ
تِلْفَازُنَا عَظِيمْ.. يُدِيرُهُ الْعِظَامْ
دَقِيقَةٌ لِكُوسُوفَا
وَمَا بَقِيْ مِنْ وَقْتِهَا الثَّمِينْ
لِمُطْرِبٍ.. أَوْ رَقْصَةٍ شَعْبِيَّةٍ ثُمَّ السَّلَامْ
دَقِيقَةٌ تَكْفِيكِ يَا كُوسُوفَا، لَا.. لَا تَطْمَعِي فِي غَيْرِهَا!!
قُلْ لِي إِذَنْ مَتَى سَتُعْرَضُ الْأَفْلَامْ؟
قُلْ لِي مَتَى سَنَسْتَضِيفُ عِنْدَنَا
الْمُمَثِّلَ الْهُمَامْ
هُمُومُنَا أَكْبَرُ مِنْ طُمُوحِنَا
لِأَنَّنَا بِلَا طُمُوحْ!!
أَقْوَالُنَا أَكْثَرُ مِنْ أَفْعَالِنَا
لِأَنَّنَا نَحْيَا لِكَيْ نَبُوحْ!!
كُوسُوفَا.. أَنْتِ جُرْحُنَا
تَنْزِفُ فِي أَعْمَاقِنَا..
كَذَبْتُ،
لَسْتِ جُرْحَنَا!!
فَلَسْتِ فِي صَحْرَائِنَا
وَلَسْتِ مِنْ أَوْطَانِنَا
مِنَ الْمُحِيطِ الْهَادِرِ!!
إِلَى الْخَلِيجِ الثَّائِرِ!!
فَلِمْ إذَنْ تُزْعِجِينَنَا؟
فَلَا عُرُوبَةٌ تَمُتُّ بَيْنَنَا!!
وَلَا نَرَى قَوْمِيَّةً تَشُدُّ أَزْرَنَا!!
وَلَا أَوَاصِرُ تَضُمُّنَا سِوَى الْإِسْلَامْ!!
وَنَحْنُ قِدْماً.. قَدْ نَبَذْنَا دِينَنَا..
وَيَنْتَهِي الْكَلَامْ!!
الْآنَ قَدْ فَهِمْتُ
لِمَ الْوُلَاةُ عِنْدَنَا لَمْ يُصْدِرُوا بَيَانَهُمْ
بِالشَّجْبِ وَالتَّنْدِيدْ
وَلَمْ يَكُنْ -كَدَأْبِهِمْ- خِطَابُهُمْ
يَضِجُّ بِالْوَعِيدْ
لِأَنَّ الفَرْقَ بَيْنَنَا.. بَعِيدْ
فَقَدْ تَكُونُ عِنْدَكُمْ مَآتِمٌ
وَعِنْدَنَا أَيَّامُ عِيدْ!
كُوسُوفَا.. لَا بُدَّ أَنْ أَقُولَهَا..
إِنِّي لَأَعْشَقُ الْجِهَادَ
لَكِنَّنِي أَخَافُ إِنْ نَبَسْتُ بِاسْمِهِ
أَنْ يَحْذِفَ الرَّقِيبُ هَامَتِي
لِأَنَّنِي سَأُرْعِبُ الْعِبَادْ
لَكِنَّنِي أُمَارِسُ الْجِهَادْ
مَا بَيْنَ نَفْسِي دَائِمًا
حَتَّى أَعِيشَ سَالِمًا
كَيْ لَا أبُوحَ بِالْهَوَى
وَلَا أبُوحَ بِالْوِدَادِ
حَتَّى أَمُوتَ كَاتِمًا
حُبِّي.. بِقَلْبِي.. سَالِمًا
وَعِنْدَهَا يُقَالْ:
مَاتَ شَهِيدَ حُبِّهِ
وَكُلُّهُ -يَا كُوسُوفَا- اسْتِشْهَادْ!!

نُشرت في مجلة «المجتمع»، العدد 1352
1 يونيو 1999م

Kosovo, Do Not Call to Me!1

  1. Kosovo, do not call to me!!
  2. I am here, my will paralysed,
  3. my leadership2 in chains.
  4. Kosovo, do not pour out your heart to me!!
  5. For I live with no hearing and no mouth,
  6. I live not knowing when
  7. the ruler will order my arrest, and I will be executed.
  8. I am afraid, if I lend an ear for a single moment,
  9. of the charge of terrorism.
  10. And my rifle is like the rulers' cannon,
  11. but I bury it beneath the dust3.
  12. I am afraid a whiff of me will betray that I
  13. support terrorism.
  14. Kosovo... I would lay down my life for you4!
  15. But in words,
  16. in mere words!!
  17. For I do not hold the reins2.
  18. My father used to say to me:
  19. 'The wall, my son, hears what is said5!'
  20. I believed him, in spite of myself, and my joints
  21. trembled
  22. and my bones knocked together.
  23. I am always afraid of the rulers' curse.
  24. Kosovo, do not blame me!
  25. In this sorrow you have NATO, and that should be enough for you6.
  26. Our tragedy is one and the same,
  27. because Khalid and Jaʿfar and Hamza are dead7..!!
  28. Kosovo, do not blame me!!
  29. For I am drugged with songs of love and passion.
  30. Our television shows them, and the people are madly in love with love.
  31. Our television shows them... who says they are forbidden8?!
  32. On our television I watched
  33. the orphaned children of Kosovo being slaughtered
  34. before they were even weaned.
  35. The bereaved women of Kosovo
  36. raped... violated... systematically.
  37. Yet it is as though I were watching films.
  38. I sip my juices
  39. and eat my food,
  40. and not one mouthful sticks in my throat,
  41. and there the talk ends.
  42. Our television is great... run by great men9.
  43. One minute for Kosovo,
  44. and what is left of its precious airtime
  45. for a singer... or a folk dance, and then goodnight.
  46. One minute is enough for you, Kosovo. No... do not covet any more than that!!
  47. Tell me, then: when will the films be shown?
  48. Tell me: when shall we host, here among us,
  49. the gallant actor10?
  50. Our cares are greater than our ambitions
  51. because we have no ambition!!
  52. Our words are more than our deeds
  53. because we live only to pour our hearts out!!
  54. Kosovo... you are our wound,
  55. bleeding in our depths...
  56. I lied:
  57. you are not our wound!!
  58. For you are not in our desert,
  59. nor are you one of our homelands
  60. from the roaring Ocean!!
  61. to the rebellious Gulf11!!
  62. So why, then, do you trouble us?
  63. No Arabness binds us to each other!!
  64. and we see no nationalism to lend us strength!!
  65. and there are no ties to join us except Islam!!
  66. And long ago... we cast off our religion...
  67. and there the talk ends!!
  68. Now I understand
  69. why our rulers did not issue their statement
  70. of condemnation and denunciation12,
  71. and why their speeches were not, as is their habit,
  72. loud with threats:
  73. because the gap between us... is wide.
  74. There may be funerals among you,
  75. while among us there are days of feast13!
  76. Kosovo... I have to say it...
  77. I passionately love jihad,
  78. but I am afraid that if I so much as breathe its name
  79. the censor will strike out my head14,
  80. because I would sow terror among people.
  81. But I do wage jihad,
  82. always within myself15,
  83. so that I may live in safety,
  84. so that I do not reveal my love
  85. or reveal my affection,
  86. until I die, keeping hidden
  87. my love... in my heart... safe and sound.
  88. And then it will be said:
  89. 'He died a martyr to his love16.'
  90. And all of it, Kosovo, is martyrdom!!

Published in Al-Mujtamaʿ magazine, issue 1352, 1 June 199917

Notes

  1. Kosovo, then a province of Serbia within Yugoslavia, was the scene in 1998 and 1999 of a campaign of killing, rape and mass expulsion by Serbian forces against its Albanian population, most of whom are Muslim. NATO bombed Yugoslavia from 24 March to 10 June 1999; the poem was published in the middle of that campaign. Throughout, Kosovo is addressed as a woman calling for help, and the speaker, an ordinary Arab under an authoritarian government, answers with bitter irony. ↩
  2. Qiyāda means 'leadership', and also the act of leading or steering, as a rider steers a mount. So 'my leadership in chains' says both that the speaker cannot steer his own course and that those who lead him are themselves bound. Maghlūla, 'fettered', is used of hands shackled to the neck with an iron collar (ghull), a figure of helplessness. The idea returns in 'I do not hold the reins' (zimām, 'bridle, rein'). ↩
  3. The verb and even the object pronoun (yadussuhu fī al-turāb, 'buries it in the dust') echo Qur'an 16:59, where the pre-Islamic Arab who is given news of a baby daughter wonders whether to keep her in disgrace 'or bury it in the dust'. The echo makes the hidden rifle something buried alive, out of fear and shame. ↩
  4. Afdīki, 'I ransom you', is the common Arabic pledge 'may I be your ransom', that is, I would give my life for you. The next lines undo it: the pledge is made 'in words, mere words'. ↩
  5. The father's saying is the Arabic form of 'walls have ears'. It captures the habit of fear under police states, where every conversation may be overheard and reported. ↩
  6. The line is sarcastic: Kosovo has NATO's bombers, so it need not expect anything from the Arabs. The Arabic also makes a rhyme of nātū, 'NATO', and mātū, 'they died', in the next line, tying the foreign alliance that acts to the heroes who are no longer there to act. ↩
  7. Khalid ibn al-Walid, Jaʿfar ibn Abi Talib and Hamza ibn ʿAbd al-Muttalib were among the great warriors of early Islam; Jaʿfar and Hamza died as martyrs in battle, and Khalid was called 'the Sword of God'. Saying that they 'are dead' means that the Muslim world no longer has men of their kind to come to the aid of the oppressed. That is why 'our tragedy is one': Kosovo's and the Arabs' own. ↩
  8. Ḥarām means forbidden by religious law. The question is ironic: the songs must be lawful, since the official television broadcasts them. It exposes how the state's authority has taken the place of conscience. ↩
  9. The Arabic is tilfāzunā ʿaẓīm… yudīruhu al-ʿiẓām, 'our television is great… run by the great'. ʿIẓām, 'great men, grandees', is also the plural of ʿaẓm, 'bone', the word used a few lines earlier for the speaker's bones knocking together in fear. The pun lets the 'great men' who run the screen be heard as mere bones. ↩
  10. Al-humām is a lofty word for a brave, high-minded hero or chieftain. Applying it to a film actor is sarcastic: celebrities are welcomed as heroes, while real heroism is gone. ↩
  11. 'From the roaring Ocean to the rebellious Gulf' (min al-muḥīṭ al-hādir ilā al-khalīj al-thāʾir) is a famous slogan of Arab nationalism, especially in the Nasser era, describing the Arab homeland from the Atlantic to the Persian Gulf. The speaker uses it ironically: since Kosovo lies outside this map and is not Arab, Arab nationalism owes it nothing. ↩
  12. Al-shajb wa-al-tandīd, 'condemnation and denunciation', is the stock phrase of official Arab statements in times of crisis, a byword for words that change nothing. The rulers did not issue even that. ↩
  13. The NATO campaign, and the mass flight of Kosovar Albanians, began in the last days of March 1999, around the time of ʿĪd al-Aḍḥā, the Feast of the Sacrifice. Whether or not the poet has that date in mind, the contrast is between mourning in Kosovo and festivity among the Arabs. ↩
  14. The censor (al-raqīb) cuts words from a text, and the verb yaḥdhif, 'delete, strike out', is used of such cuts. Here it falls on the poet's hāma, his head: a censor's cut becomes a beheading. ↩
  15. In Islamic teaching, jihād al-nafs, the struggle against one's own self and desires, is called 'the greater jihad'. The speaker claims it with bitter irony: his only jihad is keeping himself quiet, a struggle to suppress his solidarity with Kosovo so that he may live in safety. ↩
  16. The ending draws on a well-known saying, attributed to the Prophet though its authenticity is disputed: 'Whoever loves, stays chaste, conceals it and dies, dies a martyr.' In the love tradition of Arabic literature this made the silent lover a 'martyr of love'. The speaker applies it to his hidden love for Kosovo: he will die with it concealed and be called a martyr. The last line, 'all of it is istishhād (martyrdom)', turns the word against itself: the only martyrdom he dares is dying in silence. ↩
  17. Al-Mujtamaʿ ('Society') is a weekly Islamic magazine published in Kuwait. ↩

English translation prepared by artificial intelligence and reviewed against the Arabic for accuracy of meaning and rhetoric.